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from june 2007-february 2009, i was working at a small store brand studio in central florida and i couldnt really post the work i did there online. i mean...i probably could have, but i wasnt going to risk any sort of legal problems. since then, ive decided i dont care. im not making any money off this stuff. im just showing everyone here a part of my life that happened.
first there was the artistic part. every day that i went to work was kind of magical internally. they actually gave me a really big amount of freedom. i got these characters very loosely described to me, and then i could go in any direction i wanted to. i researched...i drew....i researched...designing....experimenting...pushing myself to my limits. it was the most intense artistic growth period of my life. the accompanying pictures on this post are some of the works that i did during that time.
my boss said that he wanted me to "give [our shows] thier 'look'". he made me the primary character designer. once in a blue moon, hed do a design, but usually hand it off to me for development or polish. sometimes, my story team supervisor might do some designs. but no one could argue that about 85-90% of the designs were done by me. there wasnt usually anyone alongside me with it. my supervisor (who is an extremely talented guy in his own right, especially as a storyboard artist) did his best to supplement the visual development, but i was usually on my own. it was wierd. i did a LOT of research and learned a lot. for instance, sometimes i had to learn how to draw an animal--like a dog. so theres some painful dog drawings up here. or learn about the costumes of hairdos of a specific time period. the poses werent great..i had a lot of stuff to design, so i didnt always get to develop the characters toooo much....i didnt alway know the best direction to go in.. but i really did try my hardest. one show, "the leaky bucket" had this southern little boy in it. posted here are some earlier drawings of him and his grandma, and then some later ones which are on a model sheet. he evolved a bunch. i guess i was kinda proud of the work i did on that. it was a small win.
but while there was this amazing growth going on inside my artistic mind, there was a lot of turmoil going on in the studio. the company was deteriorating at the top, and our director/boss was doing all sorts of very (at best) unethical things that infuriated me on a daily basis. he had no idea just how miserable everyone was because of him. so every day when i went home, i decided i wanted to forget about work. i just wanted to play nintendo. or watch movies. or eat pizza. i put on 15 pounds. not posting on my blog could definitely be added to that list.
months after our studio was shut down and we all were laid off, i got into an argument with my former boss. he told me i was a " first class rip-off artist of other peoples design styles", along with some other nasty comments. i dont have to put up a front here. i know that i often use a design language thats been written by other artists. but DO give them credit, as i have in the past. i think every designer needs a foundation. somewhere to grow from. i was just doing my best to understand what the masters were doing. its funny, cuz every day he told me that he loved my work. imagine that. every day you go to work, and your boss lies to you.. he tells you that youre doing a good job. and then one day he basically tells you that you have no real talent, that youre just a rip-off artist. i guess im no better. i lied to him a lot by pretending that every word that came out of his mouth wasnt completely retarded. so i guess we're even.
anyway, this last few months, ive been laid off...just kinda barely getting by with freelance and waiting from a number of places for a response. i wasnt able to collect any unemployment because of the wonderful way our company treated us---in every way like a real employee, except in compensation, benefits, and tax payment. whatever. as i was looking through these old drawings, i was thinking about the purpose of my blog...i started it (way back when) to try to get better...not to show off my best work, although sometimes ive done that. (looking back, that "best work" for the time is pretty pathetic to me now). SO these designs are not all my best work. a couple i thought were pretty good. but they represent a time in my life where i was very depressed. and simultaneously exploding with artistic growth. do what you will with that. and thanks if you actually read this dissertation.
PS-im going to post my portfolio under a different blog, if anyone cares. that IS my best work. for what it is.